In one word describe your lifestyle.
Now, looking at that word...What do you love about it? What do you feel you want to change? How does the thought of changing it make you feel?
If I had to describe my lifestyle in one word it would be safe.
To me, I feel safe. I am very much a creature of habit and love consistency in my life. Surrounding myself in a positive environment, with people who I care about and who care about me, is when I thrive the most. I don't take a lot of risks, but I also don't avoid trying new things. I am very good about speaking up or stepping out when it would hold me back if I otherwise did not. I feel safe with myself, which is what I have been working towards these past few years.
When I look at the word safe I picture laying on the couch, wrapped up in a blanket, with nothing bad from the outside world being able to touch or harm me. The word safe is one those words that give me a warm, fuzzy feeling. For me, there is nothing wrong about the word safe. I love feeling and living safe.
The only thing I don't like about the word safe is the worry I get about getting stuck in a rut. I do love constancy, but I don't like complacency. I don't want to get stuck and be afraid to step out of my safety net when it's necessary. I don't want to change feeling safe, but I want to make sure my worry does not come true.
Changing my safe lifestyle scares me because I think the only way it will change is when the unexpected forces it to change. I can do things that will be unsafe out of my own free will and that is fine. It is the change that I am forced to do that makes me nervous. But like I have said in the past, I'm not as scared of the unexpected as I use to be. It definitely still is scary, but I know that I would be able to be handle it and get back to feeling safe.
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